When I first found out I was pregnant a cacophony of emotions rushed through me all at once. Amongst the joy and suprise and happiness there was definitely "fear" and "apprehension" as well. Before even taking the time to truly embrace what was happening to me and marvelling at the awesomeness of it, I was frightening myself with the fear of the unknown, and the idea of excruciating pain. I knew I wanted to enjoy my pregnancy and focus on the positive aspects and I recalled a friend mentioning CALMBIRTH to me, a quick search on the internet led me to Tracey and I will be forever grateful to my friend for mentioning the word "Calmbirth".
Through the classes my partner Simon and I became acutely aware that this pregnancy was not just about me, not just about the baby, not just about Simon... It was about all of us. A journey to becoming a family and that even though I would be the one delivering the baby, I was not on my own. Calmbirth taught us that I had to let go of the fear and embrace what my body was made to do, my body has all the tools necessary. My body, my baby, my partner, my mother, my midwives- we were all in this together, I was not alone and I was more than capable.
Simon and I listened to the meditations nightly and practiced our breathing and visualisations until it became second nature to simply "slip" into that world where all that existed was my breath. When our due date came and passed I was advised to book in to be induced. Through the Calmbirth classes I was aware of what was involved and as I had no risk factors decided to wait as long as I could in hope of having as natural a birth as possible. The wait paid off and the night before I was booked in to be induced I went into labour. I did not feel panicked or scared, I was calm and focused. I immediately fell into my breaths, whilst Simon and my family made our home a quiet and comfortable space like we had planned. I laboured at home from 8.30pm - 12.20am, when I felt a contraction strong enough that made me feel like I needed to be in the hospital. By 5.30am our midwife offered to break my waters to assist progress, which I agreed too. Immediately the contractions came faster and stronger. I went into the shower and continued to focus on my breaths holding onto Simon and moving around as much as we needed too. By 6.30am I was moved into the bath to have my planned water birth. Just like I had learnt in the classes I could feel myself transitioning into the next stage and feeling the urge to "go home" as the pain increased. Simon was able to remind me that this was important and meant we were close to meeting our baby. However, due to a cervical lip after two hours although I had a strong urge to push no baby had arrived. I was tired and exhausted and feeling as though I was ready to give up. My mother, Simon and Tracey continued to remind me of my low breaths and to visualise, this helped tremendously. The Doctor arrived to help the baby pass over my lipped cervix I also used the gas to help me through this stage of labour to take the "edge" off. We moved from the bathroom to the room again where I felt like I gained a new strength and energy and an even bigger desire to push. I was able to move around and change positions and in no time I felt the burning stretch which was mentioned and although it was a new pain it gave me the biggest surge of energy because this time I KNEW that I was so close, and sure enough Wylie arrived and was placed onto my chest by Simon.
Although our birth plan was to have a water birth, I am completely fine with how our baby came into the world. For the most part I felt completely calm and focused, and for those moments I didn't I had such a great support team who reminded me to breath and focus on the outcome. I would recommend Calmbirth to everyone and anyone. It is amazing and gave me so much valuable knowledge and practical skills that led to the calm, safe arrival of our baby boy.
Thank you Tracey :)
-Lisa & Simon